JOJOLO ( Cradle)
The dilemma of a new-born.
The last I remembered was saying goodbye to my dad while the angels escorted me out of his presence and then whoooooops!! I found myself in this empty confinement filled with water. Where is this place? I wondered. "Hello...is anyone there!. I dint get any response except for my voice echoing down the hall way. Everywhere seems so dark and slimy.
Suddenly I heard my dads voice, “Don't be afraid, I am still right here with you, Though you cant see me, but you can always hear my voice and feel my touch” Ah...Great ! I was consoled. Then I heard my dad’s voice again. “Your journey has officially started. You need to ensure you finish all the assignment that I have showed you. Please don't get distracted. Stay focused!”
After many nights or is it days?…
I have been here for quite a long time. I cant really tell how long, but I know it’s been so long. I have grown not only in size but many organs have been added to my "no form" being . I recall myself as a tiny dot when I came here, now I have a full body. My father had been coming everyday to add one part or another to my body. This morning, I woke up with this black hair on my eyelids. I am wondering what they are for? I have been trying to pull it out, but it seems painful. I guess its part of my eyes. Maybe it is to protect my eyes. I don’t really know . The more my dad adds to me, the more I feel close to being complete .
My thoughts on many days….
...But I am still very confused about this journey. This place I live doesn’t meet my expectations. A far cry from where I was coming from. I still don’t know where I am, neither do I understand where I am going to.
How come I don’t have anything yet? No beautiful house or will I call this slimy sac with lots of liquid and “yacky” stuff around my face, somewhere befitting for a home?
Where are the cars my dad told me about? He says it should take me from one place to another, and make my journey faster. I cant really wait to see how this will look like.
When will I start working? I have been here for as long as I can remember and I haven’t lifted a finger to do any job. All I do is sleep and wake up. Yet before i get hungry, I am already fed. All I know is my tommy get filled by itself. What is this long rope connecting me to this wall? I feel like its holding me back . What if I cut it? Then I will be faced again with this sac of water. I cant get out! Sobs...... I think I am trapped for life .I feel all crampy and bored. I cant definitely continue like this. Daddy...I am sorry to disappoint you, any chance of coming back home? Hello daddy...Hello.. ( No response). Hmmmm! ( sigh of frustration)
One morning, I believe it should be..
Is anyone going to give me some robes to put on? Maybe I dint need it before, but now that my flesh is visible. I believe I need one . Even angels back at my dads vineyard wear white robes.
Would I ever have a friend to talk to? Why is this journey so lonely.. so boring?
Dad...I think at this point, I need an answer from you. Where am I and where am I going?
All of a Sudden….
Poooop!!( a loud noise) and then hissing, Ssssssssssssssshh…. What's that noise? I can hear something. Is something leaking? Looks like water is gushing in, or is it gushing out of somewhere. Oh! is that someone’s voice. Yes !I can hear someone screaming. Wait a min! this voice is familiar. I often hear this voice a lot. I hear this voice daily calling my dad's name. I also remember my dad mentioning that some people pray to him by calling his name. This person must pray a lot though, because she calls my dad's name everyday. Sometimes she even sings calling this name as well. But why is she screaming so much? Why is she screaming my dads name? Or is she in some form of danger? Does she need help? Or wait a min. I can hear other voices too. Strange ones! Hmmm what is going on? What is going on? Why is everywhere turning so fast. And the water ..oh it looks like this balloon I live in has busted. Did I burst it? Oh my God, I did! So what happens next, now that the water is leaking out.
A split of calmness..
Thank God!...Hmm..I think the noise has reduced and the pressure has gone down a bit. But daddy I need to understand what is going on. I don't think it's safe to live here anymore....Oh Oh!!! Here it comes again! The pull ..the pressure! I know it's been a bit uncomfortable here for a while now. It looks to me like this temporary house is getting too small for me, or maybe I am getting too big for it. Ohhhhhhh! What's that pull again? That force! I feel something or is it someone pulling my head down a channel. Oh my God what is going on? Now I am scared. DAD! DAD! ARE YOU STILL HERE? You haven't spoken or rather I haven't heard your voice for a while. What is going on? Why does it look like I am been dragged through a pit or is it a channel. Whoosh!!... Oh my God.. everywhere is beginning to feel empty. Looks like someone is destroying my house. Everything I have around is going down this tunnel. Not like this place is that comfortable. But at least it had served as a home for me all those while. Why am I now losing this place...
Dad, what's going on? My heart is beating fast! OH MY GOD... Oh! I can see a tiny light down this tunnel..Where is this place? Oh No! I better go back, It feels like I am in danger.. But oh ! Why cant I swim back up? Why do I keep falling? I guess all the water has leaked out. I am destined to fall at this point.
Whoooooooo! The pull is getting stronger now.. But.. But. Where am I going? Yes I was excited to be free from this confined state, but I am confused about leaving here as well. And the way I am exiting is so scary . Why am i falling with my head? This is very absolutely not safe!.....Ohhh here I gooooo!!.. I think its better for me to close my eyes.. No! let me open it.. No better to close it! I am sooo confused!!
A lot happened, I cant remember..
I have been crying, I mean wailing for a while now. I had to close my eyes for the fear of what I will see. But then I felt a warm hand cuddling me. I felt kisses planted on my cheeks. The smell, the touch, the warmth… Quite breath taking! And the the voice.. I opened my eyes gently. I believe its safe to do so now. I kind of landed in a safe place. Then i heard this soft whispers..
This voice…very familiar It was the same voice that was screaming a while ago. She was whispering something to me, amidst her kisses. Here I am, looking into the eyes of the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. This person looks so much like my dad and for some reason, I see myself in her eyes.
So who is this person showering me with so much love. This is exactly what i need after all these ordeal. I gazed into her eyes and tiny drops of water falls down on my cheeks. Now I am confused…Why is she crying?
Lost in love
Oh no, just for a split second ,I forgot about my dad.. Dad are you still here? Look who i found! Someone that reminds me of you. Your love, warmth and kindness. Do you know her? Am I still on track on this journey?.
Then my dad spoke! Finally!! My dad spoke!
That's your MOTHER. She and your earthly FATHER will take care of you.
So my son, take care on this journey and remember all that we have discussed. Above all, stay focused and do not get distracted! Like all journeys, this will end someday.
Oh wow! I feel the love already and I believe I am in safe hands. I just want to say thank you because you formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside and my intricate outside, and wove them all together in my mother’s womb. I thank you daddy, for making me so mysteriously complex! Everything you do is marvellously breath-taking. It simply amazes me to think about it! How thoroughly you know me, Lord! You even formed every bone in my body when you created me in the secret place; carefully, skilfully you shaped me from nothing to something.
(Psalms 139:13-15 )
Please help me on this journey! Help me to complete my task in full.
Alright my child. I will direct you. Just ensure you follow says my dad….
